Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
real art.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
perfect for who
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
what yo name is?
Monday, November 15, 2010
In the dark!
It's magnificent
A brush under the table with your fingers
The slide across me black silky knees
His endless search to find me flower
The waiter pours the drink
I tighten my thighs
I'll eat before I die a little. And I'll only tolerate a little death In the dark.
sit with me
I will celebrate with a kiss
I am awaken by his touch
I am drawn to his eyes
This fire in my belly
Creeps out into words
I should never utter
I am alive
Because at you
I await your love
A treasure I will bury in my breast
Hide in my belly
Take into my lips.
I need you
Friday, November 12, 2010
into my arms
To the comfort of my arms
Now purposed wth love
Come to me
To the welcome of my thighs
Now purposed with expressions
Of tangible love
When the rain traps us
And a kiss engages us
I will feel no fear
I understand what I am
Hard earth in bloom
Nurtured by your love
Come to me
To the tent I have made
For the comfort of your head.
And the swell of your belly
Come to me
For the divine had made me
The light had found me
And fate brought me here
To you.
My heart is for you
My soul
My fate
My king
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
i love you
Sunday, October 31, 2010
art imitating death imitating art
Saturday, October 30, 2010
peace be with you
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
the more i think about it.
soulmate
Monday, August 23, 2010
Short story: The wanting comes in waves
'If there is anyone here who opposes this union, let him speak now or forever hold his or her peace.'
I stood I had no dignity. I did not even pay attention to the woman who was trying to take me out after i stood. I heard her voice but did not understand what she was muttering. The church walls around me started to spend. I did not feel right. I felt as if the next words that i utter would send me into oblivion.
'I', was all that i could say before I passed out into oblivion.
**********
I did awake to find Freddy standing over me. He was still in his tux which means he went through with it. I could have cried. I could feel the tears weld up. I did not want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me cry so i decided to just turn to my side.
'So you are now someones husband. I hope you are very happy.'
'I did not get married.'
I had turned to look at him. I can't say that i was not happy to hear the good news. I was hoping that he would not get married.
'you did not get married? Why not?'
'Because you had something to tell me and i could not in good conscience marry someone that i was not sure about.'
'Oh God please don't blame that on me. I didn't want to sabotage your wedding.'
'Oh no? Then why did you stand up to oppose?'
I could not answer that. Why did I stand up? I had known for months that it would happen. I did not freak when I saw the invite. It was becoming all too real. So why did i stand up? I had long since denied him anything that had to do with us getting together. Even as we spent every moment with each other, I was not sure that Freddy was the one i was really in love with. He was everything that I did ask for. I simply did not know how to make it work. And now here he is standing in a tux meant to be wed in with some other woman. Gosh what was i thinking letting him go? I loved and i did not. I want and then i Don't. If would marry anyone. it would be Freddy. He was the most kind and thought man. He was attentive and sweet. He would even save the last bite of food for me. He's a happy person, beautiful and talented.
"i guess is still love you.'
'Love me? this is the first time you ever mentioned anything about love. Why didn't you say this to me when i first told you i was marrying Gwen?
'Because I did not want to look like a fool. I never did this before Freddy. I never been in love with anyone before. It scares the shit out of me to think that someone would actually rely on me. I cant give you anything.'
'Give me anything? I don't need anything. I just wanted to make you happy and show you how happy you would be with me. But every time i touched you, you freaked out. I thought you were disgusted with me.'
'No not at all. I do love you, i just,'
i Paused. What should i say just tell him the truth. I wanted him and let all this time go by.
'you just what?'
' I am scared Freddy. I am scared to lose you. I'm scared to even acquire you because i don't want to loose you.'
'Tara I am your friend for life you know that. I love you too. I am marrying Gwen though.'
I had turned over to my side. should i just spill my guts about miss Gwen. As far as i am concerned she had become my enemy. I Tried being nice to her for the sake of Freddy But little miss Gwen had secrets honey. I had been witness to many counts of Gwen getting out of line. I even had friends of Freddy call me to tell me some things that was going on with her. Gwen is a cheating whore. What the hell If i could not have him, no one could.
'She cheats you know. She is a lie and a cheater and you will be making a mistake if you stay with her.'
'If that is true, why did you not tell me this?
'because i am in love with you. I sabotaged us even though i am in love with you. You would just chalk it up as jealousy.'
'She cheated on me?'
'YES. more than once.'
'So now i am supposed to drop everything and marry you? You rejected me remember? I have moved on. I not going to ever fall in love with you again.'
I could take that. I was prepared for it. So I remained turned on my side and again I said nothing. I didn't expect anything. I just wanted to say my peace.
***************
Work was today. Everyone who knew me and Freddy knew that I had made a fool of myself. I still did not care what anyone thought. I wanted to see if there was still a Freddy and me and i was not ashamed of that. Freddy is my soul mate. Even if we are not together. I can handle that. I tell you one thing though. Gwen ain't getting Freddy. This is not over.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
American rat race
Chasing dreams
Chasing fiction
Our hearts beating fast in the dust
our color effective in the inevitable
Watching the bones licked dry
waiting for our turn that will never come.
The condition of the American is a futile one. The only thing worth living for is the hope of one day getting your piece of the pie. We get lost chasing this myth of imaginary money. The only thing of value is your ethos, your dignity and Self respect. We all sold a piece of ourselves at one point of our lives in order to belong. To say that we have, we can. But we all know that underneath it all we don't have anything and we can not get anywhere in America. We all fell susceptible to beast. Taking from it's belly like parasites unwanted and fathomless. We are living in our lower vibrations. We are sharing them with each other. It is time to wake up and experience ourselves. We spend a lot of time paying attention to those around us. And even though we can relate to their pain, we don't acknowledge it. We are too busy making others feel bad in order to take the focus off ourselves. you better save your soul and stop hoping that the governing bodies care enough to focus on us as a whole. They Dont They keep us seperate even thought we are here together. The power is in numbers. No one man can beat that. Let us revel in our connectedness.
You must not lose faith in humanity. Humanity is an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.
Mahatma Gandhi
People and connection
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Honesty
Sunday, August 8, 2010
ghost world
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Sans Testecles
And people. Stop it. Stop it with the notion that healthcare is welfare. You will be able to do it too. It is time that we do out part as citizens and pay into the system. All of us and yes some are poor, but it is capitalismn that conditioned them to be that way. We want some good things in return too. We want free health care. That is after all what we a paying for. We're paying for it to be free. Wake up. Do you understand that you are putting a market price on something you can have for free. You are willinnly paying your money into insurance companies who dont want you to have healthcare. They want you to pay them until you die.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Ego Tripping
That noise Defines Destiny
The members of the band ‘That Noise’, went out to play South by south west. At first, it was a bad idea, because no one had money. Then as fate would have it, they had the opportunity to bus with another band who was also attending south by south west. So off they went with passion and drive and barely any capital. When as fate would have it the second time, the lead singer met some bad luck at the boarders of Texas when he was found with an incredible cocktail of illegal’s. It was enough to get him into hot water. Now here is the question. Is it nobler in the mind to except the bad spoils of fate or should you keep on fighting?
The integrity of the music was still there. They never gave up. They went on. In the rock music world, they earned the right to be on that stage. With all the slings and arrows thrown their way, they fiercely kept on until they were on that stage and focused destination. This is favorable in the eyes of the rock Gods. They kept the faith. They were determined and dedicated enough to never let any obstacle get in their way. I think this band has a very bright future. Good luck boys!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Downtown Los Angele: The Height of Sophistication?
As a local of Los Angeles, I have been craving to see life in the city. As far as art and Culture goes, there is none, with the exception of the beautiful Latino culture that thrives but not all understand and participate. And that is only one voice. There are plenty other forms of art in Los Angeles that is grossly ignored. What was considered art and culture in Los Angeles 10 years ago was the exclusiveness of underground parties. You had to know people in order to participate and observe. The proposal to bring Life and art into the heart of downtown Los Angeles will not only thrive for the local food Culturist and artist; it gives all a chance to participate and observe something they can relate to. I can remember when and if I ever drove downtown, there were a concentrated number of transients in tents on the streets at night. Main Street was the place you could go to by drugs. The Rosslyn hotel housed crack heads and drug addicts. Then museums and art galleries started showing up every where. The Santee alley sold a pair of shoes for five to ten dollars. The streets were empty and the old theatres were never used. With the new Art movement in Downtown Los Angeles comes the death of the Garment district downtown. The Fashion district is slowly dying. Is this a sacrifice worth making? Did we not learn anything from the Garment district of the Manhattan's Bowery?
Now that the energy has shifted, I feel like there is life in Los Angeles. We were a silent voice yearning to get out and express the angst and perpetual boredom. Now the silent and muted artist now has a voice and a stage for the locals. There is also the new neighborhood with real live domestics and dogs with sweaters. This new Downtown has now become the height of sophistication. I'm hoping the rest of Los Angeles catch on. And hopefully it won't die out like everything else in Los Angeles.